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As the title of this post suggests I did not get much sleep last night at all. At first I had a hard time falling asleep. I think it is because of my messed up sleep schedule at the moment. After I did get to sleep, I kept having this dream about Andrew (my ex).

It was a mixed up dream. It took place at Cedar Point mostly. It was a cross between the first time Andrew and I were there and the 2nd time. I think the dream showed more of how I wanted things to turn out instead of how they actually did. It was like we were back at Cedar Point trying to regain the connection that we felt so strongly when we first met, but has since died. It was mixed up with some adventure which I don’t quite understand how or where it came from. It completely had nothing to do with Andrew and I. At one point through the added adventure we were running around the park finding places to hide in ride areas to talk or something. It was rather mixed up. As the dream went on and our adventures continued, it seemed that we were able to rebuild the connection we lost in real life. Although, in the dream he kept pushing it away. Keep in mind that I was waking up periodically through this and it is very broken and dosn’t quite make sense. Of course I know that all of this was not real and that Andrew and I will never get back together. I do think it shows how I still fell inside and might be why I am still having some trouble getting over it.

I understand everything that has happened in real life. I don’t quite know all of the reasons because not even Andrew was able to give reasons for everything. But, I know what must be done for me to move on and I am working on doing it. It is a work in progress that will take some time, but I know I can do it.

I would also like to thank all of my friends who have supported me through this rough transition (meeting Andrew, moving to Lansing, the break up, etc…). I don’t know what I would do without all of my amazing friends!