To my surprise one of my friends arranged for our entire group to be photographed in Old Town Lansing yesterday. It was really fun! There were a few people there who I had just met that others have known for a long time. Unfortunately my roommate had to work and couldn’t make it out. I think we should just Photoshop him in later. We got some really good shots. I can’t wait to see them. They are going to be amazing!
After the photo shoot, we departed our separate ways for a while as we prepared dishes for a potluck at the end of the night. That was really fun too. Again there were people who I didn’t know and those I have not seen in a long time. It was a lot of fun with games, talking, food, and Rock Band.
Tonight there are plans of going to Spiral and I plan to get nice and drunk. Apparently a few people from work will be going out as well. This is going to be a very packed and interesting night for sure! Should be great fun.
I really love all of the friends I have met here in Lansing. Without them I would be really lost in a big world all on my own. I owe my sanity to them!
I look forward to another great year (and many more to come) with my friends!
So after my car accident on Thursday, I was extremely stressed out about the cost of repairing my damaged car or how to get a new one. After talking to a few friends and thinking things over I decided to put in some credit apps to some car dealers.
I managed to get approved for credit at Young Automotive Group in Lansing on S Cedar street. To my surprised they were able to get me a brand new 2008 Ice Blue Kia Sorento. This is my first brand new vehicle and I absolutely love it!
It has a v6 with quite a few options that my old car didn’t have such as heated mirrors, 5 star crash ratings, and an amazing Kia factory warranty.
I was in a fairly bad car accident on the way to work this morning. Never fear, I am ok. I hit a patch of ice coming off of 496 onto Lansing Rd, lost control and slammed into that lovely mound of dirt on the right side of the road, which nearly flipped my car, caused front end damage and blew out 2 tires and I ended up facing the wrong direction in oncoming traffic.
The car behind me managed to stop but the car behind him did the same thing, but instead of hitting the dirt, he hit the bridge support 50 ft behind me. That car managed to just drive off, but I was in a bit of pain.
I was hospitalized for 3 hours while the doctor took x-rays of my spine. Luckily everything checked out and I only sprained my lower back and neck. I was also treated for high blood pressure (probably due to the stress) and an extremely high heart rate.
So now my car is in the body shop getting looked at. Hopefully it won’t be too expensive to fix, but until then, I am without a car and am hating every minute of it.
So, it is time to move everything into the new house. Although, the house is unlivable at this time. The bathroom is trashed, nothing is cleaned, the kitchen looks like you might get sick just walking in, and the carpets are nasty as hell. Also, the fence gate is broke due to rotted wood, a window in the basement is broken, they haven’t cleaned the basement at all, just opened the door and let it air out. And they have not fixed a cracked electrical socket, or put a face plate on another socket allowing the wires to be exposed. Now, it seems to be that this house is not inhabitable. I know its cheap, and that the house may have some issues, but I would expect a working bathroom, and everything to be clean. Is that to much to ask, even from a house in the ghetto? I mean seriously! WTF 
We called the owners of the house, and they apparently were not aware of the lack of progress on the house. Kyle and I have to be out by tomorrow, so we have no choice but to at least put our stuff in the dining room. So Kyle, Tim (Kyle’s dad), Ryan and I worked to move as much as we could to the house before work. We still have a little bit to move, but it shouldn’t be to hard to get the rest. All that is left of my stuff I can just throw in my car.
Now at this time Kyle and I can not live in this place. So as it stands we will stay at our apartment til tomorrow and officially checkout before work. We will probably end up staying with Morgian and/or Patrick until this is all sorted out. No way in hell am I living in a place that is in such disrepair.
So this past month has been one of the most stressful times of my life. There have been a lot of new wonderful things going on, and some circumstances which have just made life hard to deal with.
So good news first.
I have been accepted to one of the Network Engineer positions at Liquid Web. I am very excited to be in this new department. I am excited for the challenge and opportunity to learn and lead my career into the direction that I have always wanted it to go. I have been spending most of my free time studying for my CCNA exam. I hope to take the exam after the initial shadowing period on the Network Team.
I have been trying to get more time recently to go to the gym every night. But it seems to be more and more impossible as times go on. I know I am not really fat, and that I should care about how I look only in my own eyes, but lets face it… I’m doomed unless I lose a bit of weight.
We (Kyle, Morgian, Russ and I), have finally found a house to rent. It is kinda in the ghetto and the house is a bit ghetto, but we will make it work. Currently it has these hideous spearmint gum colored walls. Whoever came up with that color scheme must have been blind. Nothing a bit of paint can’t fix. We signed the lease for that today and can start moving stuff in tomorrow. Hopefully be all moved in by Friday.
So that’s the good stuff going on in my life at the moment. Now for why I am feeling so stressed.
Being put on the Network Team is very exciting, although I have having a bit of “doubt” about my abilities. I know deep down that I will be fine and that I can more than capable of doing the job and going beyond what is asked of me in this position. But just as I had had doubt about my ability to be a Linux Server Administrator when I first started at Liquid Web, I am having doubt about my ability to be a Network Engineer. The steaks are much higher if I break something. It could cost the company millions in SLA credits for down time. As I am always careful and will always double check my work, its just a little scary. Due to my insecurities I have been spending a lot of time studying for my CCNA and have been putting a lot of emphasis on needed that study time. The more I study subnetting the worse I feel about it. I feel like I will never be able to the math in my head to do all that.
Moving has been a stress for me since July started. I have been so worried about having a place to live. I don’t like not knowing whats to come in my life, especially with that. I am glad that’s almost over. Now just got to move everything while working. This week is going to suck as I will be up late moving, and up early moving. Can’t wait til this is OVER!
Then on top of all that I find that my best friend (whom I deeply love in more ways than one) has been omitting information about his life to me. Not that I require he report to me or anything, but its nice to know what he is thinking and going through. And especially when I thought he might love me a bit back, he could have at least told me he didn’t instead of waiting til I heard it from facebook. Ok, ok, so he has a bf now. That’s great! I’m glad he is happy. But then his bf (a mutual “friend” who isn’t really a friend, but its the only way to describe it right now) decides to say hi to me. He has put a good deal of effort into ignoring me for the past two years. Makes me wonder if he just feels obligated to talk to me and see how I am doing just because I am hurting because of what has all happened. But ya know, I don’t give a fuck. I would prefer he just leave me alone and let me try to live out my life in peace in Lansing. I am sure I made him feel like an ass during that little chat. Which I know was not good of me to do. When I asked him “why talk to me now?” He just replies “I just wanted to say hi.” Yeah right… Even after deleting him from AIM and facebook he is still here, annoying me. I guess I am a bit hurt because I really would have liked to get to know him and be his friend back in the day when I still lived in Kalamazoo. But that ship has sailed. I am a new person with a new life, and I do NOT need people from Kalamazoo making my life hell again.
I just don’t know how to deal with this all anymore. I am so lonely here in Lansing. Sure I have my roommate, his friends and Morgian, but I still don’t have my own friends. The guys here in Lansing seem to be less friendly than the ones in Kalamazoo, making it very hard to meet guys to date or even just friends. Everyone says I put myself out there, but I do out, have a good time at the bars and other functions which I have time to attend with other gay guys. Yet, nothing seems to help. I don’t know what it is. I wish someone could just tell me something. I guess the only thing I can do is just go on with life, continue to work my ass off on my career and just hope that one day, love will find me too.
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